What to do in Lincoln, California

I recently moved to Lincoln a few years ago and it is one of my favorite places now. It may seem as if there really is nothing to do but for the two and a half years that I've lived here, I have found out many things that you can do.

Things to do in Lincoln, California

Check out the Bayabelle Boutique.

Eat at Kim's Country Kitchen.

Go to Mcbean Memorial Park.

Try Old Town Pizza.

If you enjoy reading, The Book Cellar is the right place for you.

The Whistle Stop Cafe is cozy.

Buy something from Callie's Cottage.

Change

If I'm being honest, it's kind of sad as to how much can change in one year. Your best friends can turn into your worst enemies. The person who has your heart crushes it and becomes your heartbreaker. People you know change and become people that you knew while people you love turn into people you loved. I think it's a little sad because you don't expect how fast things change.

I know that I find it hard by how fast things can change. My eighth grade year is the year that truly changed my life. I lost all of my friends that I loved dearly and then all of a sudden, I was homeschooled with no friends. I was filled with loneliness. When I left Cooley during eighth grade, no one that I knew ever asked me why or what was wrong. They didn't text me or message me asking if I was okay. It broke me when I realized that I didn't have anyone to talk to.

Another change soon began after this. I came back to public school, Roseville high school to be exact on the first day of the second trimester my freshman year. Some of the people I knew a little during Cooley came up to me during this time and asked if I was okay. This was something that I really appreciated. I'm a sophomore now and I've had the chance to meet so many amazing people that I know are being true to myself. As much as the struggles hurt me, there was a lot of positive things that also happened during this time. I was able to see Demi Lovato whom has inspired me so much in concert. I got to learn about my love of trying out new hair colors whether it be red, pink, or purple. I realized that I'm a good writer and it's something that I want to continue doing forever. I shared with everyone my love for acting and with drama, the class not the gossip, I was able to meet my best friends. The struggles that I had to go through suck so much but I don't regret them and I'm grateful for the experiences with it. Change is awful at first but in the end, it's a good thing and I hope everyone can realize that it isn't something to be afraid of.

What Panic Attacks Feel Like

This is for the people who don't understand or have panic attacks. If you do have panic attacks, feel free to read this as well as we all can experience them differently.

I am trying to find a way to describe the way a panic attack is but if I am being honest, it's quite difficult to describe.

Panic attacks can come out of the blue whether you are in the middle of taking a shower, doing your homework, or dreaming. They will randomly pop up and make your life miserable. They are surges of emotions coming together and clashing into your brain. You feel as if you can't breathe. You can't think straight and all you can feel yourself doing is curling into a small ball on the ground while shaking and gasping for breaths of air. You can't help but overthink and worry about every little thing.

It's the worst when you have an anxiety attack around other people. They don't always understand what's happening and they ask you what's wrong and how can they help or my least favorite, "calm down."

When I hear someone tell me to calm down as I am in a panic mode, my panic rises because I can't control it and hearing those words stresses me as I try to lower it but it doesn't want to be lowered. You feel as if the people that said that are trying to control you and then they get inside your head.

Calm down.

Calm down.

Calm down.

Telling me to calm down as I go through this panic attack isn't helping me but only making it worse. It's like the person telling me to calm down doesn't realize that if I could be calm, I would. Another thing you should never say to someone during a panic attack is "relax." because it's the exact same thing as saying "Calm down." Don't tell me that I am overreacting or that I have nothing to be panicked about because you don't know what's going on inside my brain and thoughts.

If you don't understand panic attacks, know this;

1. They can come anytime and anywhere.
2. There is no way for you to calm us down or control us in this state.
3. Anxiety and panic attacks are larger than stress.
4. It's exhausting and overwhelming.
5. People with anxiety can not just get over it!!
6. Over 6 million people have panic attacks.
7. We can't just snap our fingers and be okay.

Now, I am going to end this post right now because I know that if I continue, I will receive yet another panic attack and I've had enough for today. I will try to come back to this topic someday and explain more of the difficulties of anxiety and panic attacks but for now, I think this will work.

The Boy and His Quarter

In 2011, I was always using the notes that facebook had which is now quite hard to find. As I was reading through the old notes, I found this one special note that was posted by my sister which I figured would be wonderful for everyone to read.

Once upon a time, there was this little boy around the age of 6. He went to school on the bus one day and hit his forehead and got 6 inch cuts. After he went to the hospital for stitches, he went back to school and went out to recess. During recess, he and his friends were playing dodgeball and suddenly he got hit by the ball and it knocked out his two front teeth. After the nurse stopped the bleeding, he went back out to recess and broke his wrist playing tetherball. In the hospital, the boy was clutching onto something. When his dad asked what it was, the boy said in a cheerful voice, "Oh dad, guess what?! I found this brand new quarter at school today! This is the first quarter that I have ever had! This must be my lucky day!" 

Who is Your Cheerleader?

Who is your cheerleader?

One of the definitions of cheerleader is a person who is an enthusiastic and vocal supporter. It's a person who believes in you so much that they support you and your ideas. When you have your bad days, your cheerleader brings you up and they are always lending you a shoulder to cry on. It's the person who tells you that you can do anything and encourages you.

Who is the person that is always there for you no matter what?

A cheerleader is the one who motivates you to be the greatest that you can be. We all have one and some more than one. I know that my mom is one of my cheerleaders. She has always supported me with my dreams and I appreciate that more than she knows(speaking of my mom, she made a blog which you should totally check out http://paintingbeautywiththeashes.blogspot.com/).

Find your cheerleader and let them know how much you appreciate the support they give you. Give them back some love and be their cheerleader. Support everyone and believe in everyone. Be a cheerleader.